Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I'm seriously tired with lies. I'm tired in friendship. I'm tired in relationship. I'm stress enough for my confirmation name, stress enough for n level, stress for everything. But i never want to tell anyone, because i don't want my burden to be on others. I have been struggling behind this pillar for months, but who actually know i'm tired of it? Nobody. Because i know everybody has their own problems in life. And worst still, nobody wants to have that feeling when you are talking and your friend just act like they are listening but actually they are not. Only those that read my blog will understand. And let me say this, my blog is low profile because i don't want everybody to know about it. Yeah friendship, its been 15years plus and i have yet found a bestfriend that can be with all the way. Friends, its okay if you don't like me because i know my fcuking self that i'm not prefect. But so are you, ask yourself how many days were we there? 26days? And rumours has been going round like the second or third week. I've made up my mind okay, i'm reallyreally tired already. FRIENDS LIKE ME TELL YOU THAT I'M NOT THE TYPE THAT WILL GO CRAZY ALL THE TIME. Have you seen me at home? Do you know that i'm the type that is also quiet. You don't right, its because i always act hyper in front of you all to make you all laugh. You know how am i like when i'm in primary school? I'm the type that don't talk alot and always being alone. I tried to change, and yes this is what i get after 3years. I've enough. Once my bestfriend, i promise you i will never let our friendship go just like that. I'm sorry for not being thoughtful enough, sorry for being angry at times, sorry for not being good enough as a friend, sorry for not thinking about your feeling. But i really give up already. If you try, i will also try. Lets make it a point, 17may okay? Lets make this day the happiest day of the year. If i get rejected, then i promise i will never try ever again, and when you come to me i will reject you like how you reject me. Dearest sexybabe, i miss those days we had in the past. Chatting as though we don't have tomorrow but i'm sure we don't get the chance to be back right, its okay. As long as you are happy with your life. And yes relationship, this is part of our teenagers life right. So what is there to be shy and afraid of. Yes you i know about it, but you can't force love if its not meant to be. I have nothing much to say about this because its more secretive. Had said enough, i'm tired to go further. I'm upset enough. Labels: Suckyday.
