Vanessa's

Hazi i don't know why but lately my mood really sucks to the max. Most probably helen is the reason why things is like that now. But well i promise someone that i won't have this mood, i promise i will be a happygirl. Haiz let me just pray hard for one thing now, i just pray hard that they will reshuffle all the house colour again please, i just don't wanna be alone now okay. I don't mind any colour. And yes, its the third week of school already, tell me fast or what. When next week start, i'm really going to study really hard for n level. I wanna to get at least top 5. If i can get top 3 for PSLE, why can't i get top5 for n level right. K no mood for anything already, bye.

Labels: Stupid mood.

Hohoho i'm back againnnnn, hello bestfriend. <3 Today is so called counted the first day that we start lesson, yeah and the only period that i feel like sleeping is MATHS period. Gosh boring to the max can, and like eh we are here to learn/study maths and not listening to your grandfather of grandmother story! Learned something during science lesson today and yeah i realize only through test i can memorize things. Went out of class to talk to mr oday and yes i saw him! I was happy enough that i manage to keep that fear away and waved to him. Yessssss i'm a happygirl96 for another day although i was kinda hurt for what suckers said, but i believe karma will hit him back real hard. And yeah i wannnnnnnna buy my DSLR, eos 550D ahhhhh! )': But its super expensive! Haiz okay laaaa, gotta start with work now. I wanna do well in N LEVEL no matter what!!! I CAN DO IT! :D

Labels: Keeping the fear away and standing back on my feets.

Hello peopleeeeee, i'm back to tell you everyting about elephant parade. And i can confirm that today my post will be all about ELEPHANT PARADE. I dare to say that i'm somehow crazy over elephant parade already. At first to me i feel its like nothing, just like selling some elephants for fun. But when i really know the story about those elephants like MOSHA, i decided that i wanna help those elephants. Okay although if i sell elephant i will have commision, but my commission is jusy 3%. 30% of the money go to them, so i'm also helping them ah. Ohwell elephants @ chiang mai thailand believe in yourself, continue to lead your life alright. People out there is helping you, we are helping you to raise fund so that people there will have enough money to take care of you and all. ELEPHANTS BE STRONG! Actually to say the truth, i like elephants although that they are big and i'm scare of them. But they are really cute, everyday i'm sleeping with my elephant that i got it when i was really young. Okay going back to the topic, helped to sell lots of elephants just now and total sell is $60000 plusplus, which means 1 person commission is $300. Isn't it awesome? (: Yeah saw yihui and adam going work together this morning then i tried to hide cos i didn't want to let adam see me there. But yeah he found me in the end and ask me to go round take photo, 9.00am then go work. Before that he text me something that make me smile to myself hahah. Yeah workworkwork, then while walking to mac with zarina then i realize the paper was in my pocket so i u-turn put back the paper and i saw adam looking at me&zarina. HMM then he called zarina just wanting us to bring umbrella cos its raining, sweet or what hahahaha. After that back to work, finally after such a long time yihui and all start talking to me like a normal friend. Helped Peter to find the empty box then after that he keep helping me, aww thankyou peter. (': And yes this Adam, hahah he know i was looking for something and i look like busy at that point of time and he said this to me 'yes vanessa, what you looking for?' then i said hahah i found already. All of them are really sweet people man, i mean those permanement staff from tangs. 6.00pm went to tell yihui, adam, zarina & company i'm leaving. And yes thats the last minute that i might be seeing them already. )': I will definitely miss them ah. Yeah then went dinner with father alex and company. Had an awesome day today, i love today. <3 Thank god for such a day. (: iloveyoupeople! Sucha long post todayyyy hahaha (:

This are some photos taken thereeeeeee ~

Junaidi treat us mac for lunch, awesome muchhhh. (:

Labels: Elephant parade.

My mood now really sucks to the max. I feel as though i just fall from the top of the mountain. I feel as though i can never really feel happy for a long period of time. Its only the seventh day of 2012 and this is how i'm already feeling. How i expect to lead a happy 2012. )': I was at first motivated by Adrian and a little from Jackson. But right now i feel as though the motivation is all gone. Can i actually call Adrian and ask for his motivation all over again? If i can i want because i really feel motivated after what he say. Well i'm kinda feeling super depressed right now cos of some matters but i'm not going to let this affect me when school starts on Monday. What is meant to be it will be meant to be. Haiz i just envy Adrian his pay a month is like 25k to 30k, he don't even have to worry about money issue. Even if my pay is 7k, i'm happy enough. Thats why i should set Adrian as my role model, as someone i should learn from. Sigh, what is my life like that. Why am i leading such a hard life.

Labels: Depressed.

First week of school just ended, yeah starting from next week every single thing that i need/suppose to do. I will put in my 100% and do it. During this motivation camp, i never really get motivated by Jackson. But i get motivated by Adrian, because after hearing his problems he face in life make me feel that doesn't mean you failed once you cannot try the second time. And yes i failed once, now i'm going to put in my 100% to study hard and not fail the second time. All i wanna wish this year to pass my n level with flying colours and make sure i'm at least at top 5 in class. K waiting for the time to past then going to try the clothes for joanne's wedding. Then tomorrow still needa work then dinner with Father alex & company.

Helennnnnn, can i ask you again how are you doing now? I just hope i don't have to keep typing here and not get a answer back, i just hope i can just text you and ask you. But after that time i dare not to make the first step. I wanted to wish you 'merry christmas' on 25dec but you know what stopped me? Its your previous reply, your previous reply stop me from texting you. Ohwell its a new year, the first week is gone. Through your tweets i can see that you are kinda stress. But there isn't a choice to right, we just gotta face the challenge and not let it take over us just because its going to be hard on us for that time being. In like 6months time my prelim is here, but you know what i'm thinking now? I just need you to be there to support me and give me courage to seat for that paper and score well. I remembered the promise me made last year, do you remember? I doubt you will, ohwell. )': But for the sake of you and my class i decided to wear it on Racial Harmony Day. We must at least take 2 photos before i leave GSS. I don't know if you will be there on my graduation day but i want to take a photo with you on my graduation day. I promise you no matter what, i will still wish you 'happy birthday' at 12.00am this year. (: Seeyou on Monday. (:

Labels: Giving up is not the way out.