Saturday, December 17, 2011
I'm tired of putting on that fake smile alright, i had enough. I'm the type that will only smile and laugh if that topic happens to be a happy topic or maybe when i totally forget about my sad memories at that point of time. I totally feel cheated, feel as though i'm being used to let that person forget about the other girl. Oh come on i do have feelings. You know what can really make me smile now? As in reallyreally give a real smile? The person is Brian, and i mean it. I didn't say i like him, i didn't say i have feelings for him, i didn't say i know him very well. But still he is the one that caught my eyes when i saw him the other day. I mean it i really don't like him, but he is that person that made me smile&laugh on 16/12/2011, Friday. And that smile is real, i can feel that i don't have to put a fake one. When he ask me where i was going i was totally shock because i didn't expect him to talk to me. I told him that i was looking for another cashier, but it wasn't real. The real reason is because i wanna see him and make myself smile again. Because i know when i saw him on 12december2011 at choa chu kang mrt platform. I felt as though that something just made my day. It's like so coincidence, we keep seeing each other on that day. But wasted he work at the second floor. ): Hahah i hope i see him tomorrow againnnn. I'm going to say this the last time, i don't like himmmm. I don't know why but whenever i see him at work, i will really smile and recall about the happy moments i had.Hey, i hope you know whats going on right now yeah. In 2 more days she will be back. You know why i said i want it to go slow? Because i don't know who is lying. You tell me you broke up with your ex about 1 month ago, but charmaine told me you broke up with her 2 - 3 days ago. And its like how can one forget about the girl they like on the day i told the person that actually she don't really like him. To what i know, its normal for someone to take time to accept her fact. You ask me give you 10days, but its like on that day you already said iloveyou. You know how much i actually believe you now? I know i told myself if we don't get together successfully, then i probably will just stop thinking about relationship and do well in n level. But i also don't wish if we become together, then you keep asking me out and all because i want to give my 100% for n level next year. I really wanna do well and prove to them i can do it. I'm also not the type that like to talk on the phone if i have nothing to say. I'm also the type that does not like to keep going out. K whatever it is i'm leaving it to fade.
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