Thursday, December 8, 2011
I'm finally back againnnnnnn, its my off day today ~ 3 more days to end the work attachment, i just hope i get chosen so i can work and earn money. I wanna shopshopshopshop. I wanna save money for my Korea trip. I know it will take a long time for me to save money for my korea trip. But still i'm never going to give up, because i really wannnnnna go there. Now i know its not easy to earn money, all awhile i thought its easier than studying. I was wrong, studying is easier. I'm going to study real hard and get busary every year. This time round if i 'm able to work, i will give 40% of it to my mum, and keep the rest. Yeahhhh, when it comes to work. Thats not the only problem i face. THAT is also a problem i'm facing almost every working day. I have been trying everyday, trying to get more hints. And yeah yesterday was the day that i got the most hints, till now i'm still deciding if i should give up or carry on working hard for it. Because i always remember this line, 'you won't know the outcome if you don't try'. She can deny that she don't like him, but you know its true that she like him. Ain't you going to do something to and let the days pass like day? Seeing them text everyday, chatting as though like there won't be a ending. You know that he has a girlfriend, but she doesn't know. So you can at least do something now vanessa, before its really toooooo late. Sigh, i have been thinking and thinking for a solution almost everyday, and till now i still can't come out with a good solution. The plan i always use in the past is no longer a good plan, i need a better and a new plan, a plan that can really make things go well.
Girl, i know you are pretty. I know that you think you are awesome-est among us. Remember how many ex you have in the past, 20plus. Asking yourself, are they real love. Or you are just acting like you like them, but actually you don't. Sometimes i really think you should think twice.
I'm not saying this because i'm afraid i won't get him. I'm saying this because i don't want to see him breaking up with his girlfriend, just to go with you and end up being hurt.I believe all your ex broke up with you is because of that ONE reason. Why? If girls like to gossip then you go with boys make you feel better? Then why you don't wanna go free and flirt all around. One day you will still break up with your boyfriend because of that ONE reason. To me, you are just a work attachment friend i made. That one friend that i have throughout this attachment. I know you are pretty, have a limit yeah. To us you are pretty, but i can guarantee to a million out there you ain't pretty to them.
Shafeeqa, thankyou for being there for me this few days. Giving me advice, giving me words of encouragement and all. Thankyou for cheering me up during this period of time tooooo. Like you know, i told 3-4 people, and you are the only one that is helping me. Thankyouverythemuch. You are the only one out there, helping me so much giving me ideas. Helping me to do something, and not only seat there and act blur like others. Although we quarreled before, i know if we continue to be goodfriends. Those memories will be nothing, it will be gone and forgotten one day. You know even a friend i have since sec1 till now has changed,
she had changed into someone else i don't wanna know. Or should i say all of the friends i have this year have changed expect for M. Well, i still like to thank you for helping me all this while dear. Iloveyouuuuuu. <3Hellooooo mr boy, i hope you have been doing well all this months. How are youuuuuuuuuuuuu? (: Its been a long time since we last chat as though there isn't tomorrow. Can i say the truth to you nowwww? Will it be too late? To say the truth, ever since december 2010, i was already up there. Slowly only till march, i slowly start standing up by myself and make things go well.
During march, i remember i told myself i must do something before i leave GSS. And yeah, its all done by October? And its because of that, it slowly start fading. You will actually never understand how i feel during that period of time. But well, now i'm glad to say i've move onnnnnn. I never think that you are someone important to me already. Just simply a goodfriend to me? Sigh, you won't know how i feel every time when i see you and tried avoiding you.Ohwell saying all this won't make you change right, so what for i say. But still every time when i see you chatting with that girl, my mood is trying to be nasty to me and make me feel lowwww.
I shall just say everything out so i won't have to hide anything anymore. I never like/love you before, its just the feeling that i like you but i don't. But i don't know why everytime i see you, my heart beat still beat really fast. K after saying everything out, i got a 50% of wanting you to read this. And another 50% of not wanting you to read this. Anywayyyy i hope you are enjoying yourself nowwww.
Once a bestfriend of mine, your birthing is in 12days timeeeee. I guess you are excited about it right! (: Because i'm always excited about it, i have already planned what i wanted to say since 14july. And can i now say i don't intend to send that text to you anymore. Because even till know i'm still troubled, thinking if i should text you 'happy birthday'. I know everybody is happy when its there birthday, and i also guess on that day you might be probably to happy and forget about me right? Its alright, when its time means its time there is nothing i can do. Since you wanted to prove to others that bestfriends friendship wont last, lets prove it this time round okay.
And i guess we can finally tell Haung Jian we quarreled. During this period of time, i always wish i have you by myself. So i could tell you all about it, like you know. When i'm happy i like to tell someone, to double the happiness. Now its too late, i would just like to wish you all the best in your life. And happy advice birthday.
Stitchhhhh, hmm be patience yeahhhh. Don't fall for her so fast, go slow. The longest you have to wait till is the 10dec. I know you are attached, i know the story. If you really love her, don't break with her. Last long, i believe the feeling both of you have is really strong. Its been 7months. Well i may not be as good as HER. But i know i won't be like her, because i don't have the thinking that she has. If you don't believe, you can wait and see. Know her personality before you start loving her. I'm not trying to be bhb, but seriously i'm okay if things don't go the way i want it to be. As long as you don't get cheated by her fake feelings its okay. Sigh whenever i think about the time you came work with her, and text her. My mood just go all the way downnnnnn, sucks. )': Sigh, its alright i will be patience and not be despo.
Labels: Emotional day.
