I don't know why but suddenly I feel super sucky, feeling as though half of my heart is broke. I can always smile and laugh when I'm with someone, everyone may think that smile is real. Let me admit now can I? Im just laughing and smiling from the top of my heart, but not at the bottom. Because I know at the bottom of my heart, it's broken. I promise myself if he don't text me himself by Tuesday. I shall just give up and pretend I didn't know him from the start. Since we only started texting yesterday. And I was the one who keep the conversation going by asking questions. Only once, ONCE he said something that made me smile. Then the rest his reply is 'hahaha, okay, oh, no, yes' he didn't reply my text this afternoon, ohwell. Now this is what really matter to me. Cos I don't care if he look at me, day-dream at me or what. He may be having different thinking. Haiz. And I don't wish to know he is texting me because she is away then want me to accompany him. Because I don't want to give myself high hopes for nothing.
Hoi, I'm sorry if I let you down. Sorry if i wasn't a goodfriend to you. Sorry if I didn't success for making you smile&laugh when you are sad. Sorry if I gave you high hopes. I tried alot of times, and I mean it alot of times. I tried making myself fall for you. But it wasn't success. But I can say we still can be close friend. I know she is more important to you than me. There is nothing for me to say/do but to accept the fact, its okay. (; I wish you all the best okay bobo! I love you. <3
Labels: Broken heart.
