Sunday, November 13, 2011
Haiz that actually shows the path that I have to decide to walk and work towards it. Can I say that i'm fifteen, turning sixteen in a few months time and I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up, I still don't know what is my admission, I still don't know my talents, I still don't know which is my favourite subject, I still don't know how my future will be like, I still don't know how I wanna lead my life in the future, I still don't know who is one out there that I can trust whole heartedly, I still don't know who really treat me as a goodfriend/bestfriend, I still don't know my weakness and many many more. I'm totally not prepared in any way for anything. You know right now I feel useless, I feel that I'm good for nothing. I failed in studies, I failed in getting really good grades, I failed as a friend, I failed as a daughter, I failed as a girlfriend, I failed as a studentcouncil. I failed in everything, I really don't know what I'm good at. )': I always thought I have that best buddy that I'll always beside me, cheering me up, listening to complains/gossips. Can I now say that she isn't a goodfriend of mine now? Can I say she isn't someone I can trust already? Yeah, after 2years plus of friendship, and yeah after a BIG quarrel we said those stuff and not we are at this state. Alrights, life goes on. I'm not going to stress myself with this friendship. If we are meant to be friends, then we are meant to be. If we are not meant to be, then we are meant not to be. Just follow the fate alright, I'm tired of all this. Just needa persevere for another 6months and I don't have to worry already. All I wish for now is to have a motivator who can be always there for me, cheering me up, motivating me when I need them. It will be awesome if PETER HO is my motivator. His words of encouragement really helped others, and by all the shows he act in and I watched the show. Those words just make me motivated and feel that life is short, there isn't lots of time to be sad. Enjoy your life to the fullest, and put those sad stuff aside. Yeah I can say all this, but when I'm really sad, I really need him to be really there right in front of me to help me. When I'm sad, this words are nothing to me. )': I've said so much, I expressed all my feelings, I said everything that I feel already. I just hope things would be better. Peter Ho, iloveyou. <3 you are such a great motivator. So what if he isn't handsome, he has a caring&positive mind that made me like him.
Peter Ho, I've watched 2shows that you acted in. And yeah, both of the show you said really great words that encouraged others to carry on with their and achieve what they wanna do. It somehow motivated me too, and I really wish you could be here for me too. Loveyoupeterho. <3
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