Vanessa's

There are 6 billions of people in this world, aside from the people that hurt you, there must still be others who love you. -Peter Ho

This sentence by Peter Ho made me move on, and i realize its okay to have haters as long as you have lovers. Yeah its also okay if you don't have lovers, at least you know you are born in this world for a reason. I'm a happy girl like that baby up there, hmm okay. I may not be really as happy as that baby. But when i'm not alone i won't feel sad or whatsoever. When i'm alone, then thats when i get sad, and recall all the memories. Every now and then when i think about what happen on last Sunday in the office i just feel like laughing. I can't believe that i really look at him all the way, since she started reading the message. Hohoho he caught me looking at him a few times but ohwell hahah. Went morning mass today, and i was super nervous throughout! Super tired man, woke up so early. Thinking of going again tomorrow. :P And yeah, tomorrow is my mother's friend birthday. And her son, marcus decided to go Hard Rock restaurant @ Orchard. Heheh awesomeeeeeee! :D Spectrum is in 3days time, time flies really fast eh. Then my work attachment is starting in like 7days time. I gotta start learning how to wrap gift. It looks easy but when you try, its not! Hahahah and i finally bought that top i wanted from gmarket.com.sg, i'm a happygirl nowwwwwww. ^^

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Haiz that actually shows the path that I have to decide to walk and work towards it. Can I say that i'm fifteen, turning sixteen in a few months time and I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up, I still don't know what is my admission, I still don't know my talents, I still don't know which is my favourite subject, I still don't know how my future will be like, I still don't know how I wanna lead my life in the future, I still don't know who is one out there that I can trust whole heartedly, I still don't know who really treat me as a goodfriend/bestfriend, I still don't know my weakness and many many more. I'm totally not prepared in any way for anything. You know right now I feel useless, I feel that I'm good for nothing. I failed in studies, I failed in getting really good grades, I failed as a friend, I failed as a daughter, I failed as a girlfriend, I failed as a studentcouncil. I failed in everything, I really don't know what I'm good at. )': I always thought I have that best buddy that I'll always beside me, cheering me up, listening to complains/gossips. Can I now say that she isn't a goodfriend of mine now? Can I say she isn't someone I can trust already? Yeah, after 2years plus of friendship, and yeah after a BIG quarrel we said those stuff and not we are at this state. Alrights, life goes on. I'm not going to stress myself with this friendship. If we are meant to be friends, then we are meant to be. If we are not meant to be, then we are meant not to be. Just follow the fate alright, I'm tired of all this. Just needa persevere for another 6months and I don't have to worry already. All I wish for now is to have a motivator who can be always there for me, cheering me up, motivating me when I need them. It will be awesome if PETER HO is my motivator. His words of encouragement really helped others, and by all the shows he act in and I watched the show. Those words just make me motivated and feel that life is short, there isn't lots of time to be sad. Enjoy your life to the fullest, and put those sad stuff aside. Yeah I can say all this, but when I'm really sad, I really need him to be really there right in front of me to help me. When I'm sad, this words are nothing to me. )': I've said so much, I expressed all my feelings, I said everything that I feel already. I just hope things would be better. Peter Ho, iloveyou. <3 you are such a great motivator. So what if he isn't handsome, he has a caring&positive mind that made me like him.

Peter Ho, I've watched 2shows that you acted in. And yeah, both of the show you said really great words that encouraged others to carry on with their and achieve what they wanna do. It somehow motivated me too, and I really wish you could be here for me too. Loveyoupeterho. <3

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Do you see us as this? Do you see us as a clique? Do you see us as truefriends?

I can confirm you don't see them as truefriends, clique, goodfriends and all. Why must you be jealous when i'm close to another. Just ask yourself, when were the times you were there for me and the answer is out. Why must you just put down the phone when someone came back, is there anything to avoid? I really don't know whats in your mind seriously. Just a simple message to you and your reaction is like 'fuck you bitch'. Seriously why must your reaction be so big. You think i'm scare of you when you said that? I can say you back 'fuckyoubitch'. I seriously don't give a sh!t to your life okay, and i dont wish to care about you too. Troubles after troubles, and realize you are the one at fault most of the time. And most AMAZING thing is you LOVE to cry and blame others. -.- HAH your future job i guess. Can arrange outing with that girl, cannot arrange with us. SERIOUSLY. -.- At least i had more problems that make me a stronger person, and at least don't feel like shit when something happen and you won't there. At least those three girls, care and cheer me up. Oh yes you did cheer me up, but it didn't even help AT ALL. Because what you said is like normal words that people will say when someone is upset. Did i tell you? I didn't right. Whatever it is i won't care about it ANYMORE. GOODLUCKFORYOURFUTURE. -.-

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I can't wait for tomorrow jogging&swimming date with Catherine and Joan. I really needa start exercising before its too late man. Hopefully my toe don't give me problems tomorrow. Anywayyyy going to have work course on Friday @ vivo city. And now i'm starting to be scare already. I just hope everything go smoothly, and that Tangs manager not to be so fierce.

World, you know something about me? Or can i say that i'm just like some other girls? I'm the type of girl that don't bitch about others if they do nothing to me, i bitch about them if they serious get on my nerves and test my patience. I can be really friendly at times and i can be really nasty to that person if that person is becoming a bitch. I can treat you like a very good friend, i can also treat you like a piece of sh!t. I can talk to you nicely and slow talk things out with you if you are patience and you cherish our friendship, but i can also ignore you and not care about this friendship and imagine that i didn't know you from the start. Just don't get on my nerves and i'm sure i won't even bother to interfere in your life bitch. I'm the type of girl that is willing to change for someone that i really love. I'm a shy&quiet girl if you don't know me, but when you know me i can really go crazy and be hyper. I'm like everybody else, i don't dare to speak in front of a crowd. K somehow thats about it.

Hey bobo, k i don't really know whats in your mind so yeah. I'm leaving it to fate, you and god. I wish you all the best in the planning. (:

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