#nowmood is as low as anything else and its indescribably.

Okay i shall start, oh well. I started my NWCDC camp with a negative mindset, thinking that this camp will be one of the worst camp cos i was afraid that i couldn't make friend with anyone in my group and i will be alone. My personality is i can be friendly to someone if that someone make the first move. Okay, after the first and second day i see the progress of me making friends with others. But of course i didn't talk alot in those group discussion and giving alot of ideas. I have been trying to speak in front of a group since the first day i became a student leader. Its a progress, its really hard to do it when all eyes are looking at me, i just can't open my mouth and speak. Its like if i said something wrong, everyone will end up laughing, its such a embarrassment. Alright not talking about this anymore. In other camps i don't really go for all the games, i will skip some for some reasons. But this time round, for the maze my toe was injured but i didn't tell anyone cos i wanted to try. My cca is library club, and i never tried this type of activities before so i told myself. Just try, by trying it help you gain experiences dont be afraid of being embarrass, dont what you can do thats all vanessa you can do it! I keep telling myself this, thats the reason why i had the faith to try. My group member, facilitator may say that i'm really quite and don't really talk much. Yeah, i said outspoken because that was something i wanna try to achieve but i couldn't. I really wish that one day i will be able to speak in front of a crowd, but no one really understand how i feel deep inside. After this 4days3nights camp, i know where is my weak point. I know where i should start and when i should. Probably the next meeting i will try to speak up more and try doing a presentation to show that i'm not that time of girl staying in my own comfort zone.

My promise to YLC10 & the rest 'i promise to be committed to YLC10 and also try to speak up more' i will fulfill them after my 1year attachment.

Thankyou facilitator that helped me because of my ingrown nail, thankyou charmaine for helping me put medicine and all. Thankyou red cobra for giving me the courage to stand tall and work towards my goal, i believe i can.