Its my third time writing THIS! I wrote everything and backspace everything again and again and again. Because i don't know whats in my mind, i don't know how to explain. I don't know why but my mood is really like a roller coaster lately, it just goes all the way up and go all the way down like nobody business. I tried to hold back my tears so that no one will know that i'm troubled with stuff, i tried but i still failed. Those tears flow out just like the water coming out from the tap.

I may look like someone strong and doesn't cry, its all a lie. I hide all my sadness behind that wall and never tell anyone about it. I never want to show people that side of me because everyone tell me that they prefer to see me smile then to cry. Its been months almost a year that i try to grant their wish, but lately i can't anymore. It doesn't seem to be working anymore, i'm about to break down any moment.