Vanessa's

I understand the difficulties you are going through. But don't teenagers have difficulties too? Aint we human? We do have feelings too, we don't like to be nagged/scolded. You know everything will be so different if parents could talk to their children nicely... It may be very frustrating for a parent to keep nagging a child too, and they will be tired of nagging too. Hais whatever it is, i'm tired of this screwed life, really. Is bloody hell the first day of 2013 and i'm already feeling tired of living like wtf? Although i know i never look forward to this year ever since i'm pri6. And all i need is courage to go through this and be a successful person next time. I really have enough troubles alone, and people still keep adding it on. I'm trying not to bring the baggage from the past into this year, but how can i not when everything just keep crashing down... If i was given a choice to be born in this world or never be born, i'll choose never to be born. Because I really dont see the reason of living... Its just like studying very hard, find a proper job, live with family, work everyday to earn money and die one day. And when we die, we can't bring our richness/happiness into the next life. So its pointless in any way.

If you really want everything to be like this, theres nothing i can do but just go with what you want. Ever since i'm young, i treasure you like a big gold and tell myself one day when you are gone. I really don't know how to continue with my life. I'll definitely have problems passing everyday like some carefree kid. You were my strength when i'm weak. You were the reason why i'm trying my very best in studying and scoring well. Mum, i'm tired really tired. Sorry for being so unfilial. Thankyou for all this years being there for me. I really don't see the reason to live anymore since i'm already taking this path. Bye.

Ohhhh its xubin oh~ Imma happygirl96, after waiting for 2months i finally got a photo with him. No words can describe how happy i am yo. :P HAHA. Okay went Singapore Poly at 10am to look for him. Walked around the whole school for 1hr and we were soooo drained already. So we decided to take a 15mins break. After that we continue to walk around, so we tried our luck and go food court 3. And yes thats when we saw him. I was so happy that i wasnt myself, i was like a completely different person being so high. :) Yeah so we followed him everywhere he went. Thank god they walk towards food court 5 to have a break. While he was waiting for his food, i quickly approach him and take a photo with. THAT EYE CONTACT WITH HIM OMGGGG <3 nbsp="nbsp">

Ohyes and this is the polaroid photo with him. OHSOHANDSOME RIGHTRIGHT? :') *melts*